God it’s hard and empty at the same time, to be around so much temptation every single conscious moment of your life. For such a long time the pivot point of my life, was all about physique and mutual attraction. I am slowly beginning to accept the irony and shallowness of the game that was put in motion, some 20 years ago.

Our generation is led to believe that physical appeal and the iconic stereotypes of today’s day and age, is all that is worth striving for. Such a con. In no situation and under no circumstances have I experienced attractiveness to be more than a brief high, without considerable and appropriate mental resources supporting it.

I have come to realize that deep down at the very core of my being, what I really long for is compatible companionship, on a profound personal and intellectual level. Someone who understands me, someone who supports my actions because that person feels the same way, someone who challenges me when necessary, someone I feel abandoned without, someone I can truly play with, someone to love unconditionally and someone to explore worlds with.

Isn’t that what we all truly crave and long for?

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